My relationship with Haiti...

I have always had mixed feelings about Haiti…

I watched a video that is posted on another blog and it evoked so many emotions. It reminded me of everything I love and dislike about my other country. (I will post the link for the video below)

I love the sound of Creole and how I have come to understand it, I love how despite most circumstances Haitians have such a “joy de vive” and are so beautiful. I love Haitian music; I love the crisp mountain air. I love the fact that Haiti is forever going to be part of our family.

But… Haiti scares the crap out of me, it does. My last trip was much less frightening – maybe because I actually had to “live” there, and it was relatively safe at the time (and well, I was staying at the Montana).
I am scared of all the potential foreign diseases, malaria, hep, parasites, food born illnesses etc. I am afraid of potential violence, especially in a foreign country. I am afraid of the lack of accountability, how many people with any “power” thinks they own the country. I hate that my “extended family” have to live day-by-day lacking essentials.

Although I have conflicting feelings about “my other country”, I have been careful in trying to portrait Haiti in a positive light to my children. I have not sugar coated some of the hardships many Haitian face on a daily basis, but I have always encouraged my children to be proud to be Haitian-Canadian and to talk about all the beauty Haiti has to offer!

A trip to Haiti with Ty has been in the talking stage, I am thinking that within the next couple of years I would love to take a trip with him and have him reacquaint himself with his original roots (maybe even meet his Biological mother – if we can find her by then). I would love for my children to know their other country first hand, for them to feel it, smell it, hear it… I don’t want to wait until they are in their late teens to re-introduce them and have them feel like they may have missed out… On the other hand, I want to protect my children and keep them safe in my little “Canadian bubble”.

Video link

Fajita or Faita...

I came home from the grocery store yesterday and Steve asked if I bought the stuff to make "fajitas" (he pronounced the j) I laughed at him and told him he needed to learn to "spell" and that I even noticed he spelled it wrong on the list... He told me he was right and we jokingly argued about for a few minutes until we decided to make a bet about it.
I was soooo convinced I was right, and said whatever bet we made had to be a GOOD one. We came to the agreement that the loser had to do dishes for a full week. Next time I will do my homework 'cause I obviously lost and will have dish hands for a while :-(
I hate when I am convinced I am right and I am so wrong...lol

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Great days...

Beautiful Tamaya

The pirate...

Ty very seriously trying to "win"

Oh man - That was TOO FUNNY.

The little bugger flew right into the....

Dog dish ;-)

We have been having such great days around here. This weekend was so nice and relaxing. I got to spend some nice one on one with the kids. We played with Ty's magnetics, a few games of pop up pirate and Steve and Ty even played with Ty's soldiers. It was too cute to see Steve get all flustered with Ty "touching" his display..lol I had to remind Steve who's toys they were and that he was the adult... :-)

Saturday night Steve and I went to a nice supper with friends of ours. It was a nice evening and just what I needed... a night with ADULTS!!!

On Sunday afternoon we all huddled in my room, the kids and Steve played on the ground and I watched my family in admiration. A few times I caught myself feeling happy tears coming! Awwww what a life :-)

My dear son...

A few days ago Ty got off the bus . He was acting funny. When I ask him how his day went he told me he had a great day at. I told how how happy and proud I was of him and to keep up the good work.

We got home and he proceeded to tell me....

"I asked a girl on my bus if she wanted to be my girlfriend and if she wanted to have a date."

I'm sure I looked stunned - 'cause I was feeling pretty speechless. I did manage to get over myself and asked him what the girl said...

"mom, she said no, she is to young to date"

"How did that make you feel bud?"

" A little sad mom, but that's ok. I'm going to ask another girl tomorrow."

"Ugh, NO... Ty you are also to young to date and have a girlfriend"

"When can I have girls in my room then?"

"Ugh... NEVER - Once you are married, maybe!"

MAN, OH MAN, OH MAN, OH MAN, OH MAN!!!!!!

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Who is Sue...

You know...I have been feeling like a mom, yes, a mom. I love being a mom, but I am so much more than that! I am Sue. I couldn't have dreamt up such a wonderful life for myself. I adore my hubby and my children, but occasionally I find myself on a road to self discovery. I sometimes question who I really am. I go through spurts of wanting a change in life. Something that is exclusively mine - something I can excel at. I find it hard to find that special something... and it seems that once I do find something of interest I get bored with it and want to move on to something else... I like to dab in all sort of things I guess.

I took on a project for my sister (actually I am doing an essay for one of her classes..sssshhhhh!) I thought this would be a great way for me to feel like I was doing something "intelligent", and have a challenge.. yeah well... it's freaken HARD! I barely came out of high school with passing grades (apparently you actually have to show up to classes to do good!) and now I take on this university essay?!? Yup, DUMB A$$. But I have to admit - I kind of feel like I'm doing something for me. (even though it's for her!)

I still wonder and think of what I would like to do when I grow up... I thought about maybe taking some on-line college courses?!? Some that would amount to an actual career once the kids are both in school full time. But again I find myself in a situation of being afraid of committing to something and getting bored with it, wasting both my time and money.

That was my deep thoughts for today.. have a great weekend ;-)

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Name change...

Edited this morning
Are you all thinking?, I've had 40+ views since this post... nobody has anything...c'mon don't be shy???

I have been racking my brain trying to come up with a new blog name.
The current name is so... last year ;-)

I thought it would be fun to have a little reader contest!!!

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Happy thinking and good luck!!!

Long update...

I feel like I have REALLY neglected the blog... Ooopsy - maybe now that life is somewhat back to normal I will back to blogging regularly.

So for a long overdue update, here it is...

We got through Christmas..lol I was actually nice to go back home and spend some much needed time away with loved ones. I love going home and spending time with family. I really wish we lived closer sometimes. It would be nice to go to my parents and in-laws for Sunday dinners and have "built-in" babysitter..lol When we travel I never feel like I have enough time to spend with everyone. It's hustle and bustle, from one house to the other. The kids get out of their routine and it's chaos... so coming home was nice too!!!

Everyone bought tooo much for the kids. I spent 2 days in the playroom re-organising/throwing out broken toys.. but alas it is good to go now!!!
Us parents were actually SPOILED as well. Steve got a snow-blower (thanks to his parents !!!) and I, a bedroom suite (thanks to hubby!). I finally, finally found one! I am getting a custom set made. Dresser w/ mirror, an armoire, a couple of end tables and a headboard/Foot-board bed frame. It's all solid pine. I am getting it stained in a dark espresso. It should be ready the first week of Feb, I will be sure to post pics once I get it.

Steve was off for over 3 weeks and I must admit it was soooo nice to spend time as a family. We really needed it. Since the arrival of our newest addition life was busy and stressful, but with our family time we seemed to have bonded at a deeper level.

Steve and Tamaya had a few good bonding moments. She is getting better at letting him be her father :-) Which has in turn helped me refresh! Steve and Ty had a few good snowmobiles rides and Steve and I had some much needed relationship time. We enjoyed quiet evenings watching movies, talking and just being a couple. It felt like it had been so long. On new years eve we opted to stay in and have a date night! We had a delicious fondue sans kids (we waited until we put them to bed)! It was nice!

I have really started to fall deeply in love with Tamaya!!!! I have had a whole lot of OH MY GOSH I LOVE HER moments. My heart is all goo goo for my toutou. I decided to let some of my "training mode" go and just appreciate her. She is SUCH a good girl. Honestly I am so blessed to have the honor to parent such an angel. It's a work in progress and I am so happy it's going in the right direction!

My Ty seems to have grown up a whole lot in the last little while. Being a big bro & being a school boy actually changed him & he has matured a whole lot. He is taking his "job" very seriously. Before Tamaya's homecoming I had these daydreams/nightmares of what I was in for. I couldn't of been so wrong. Ty is so thoughtful. He is always thinking about her and making sure that she is "hooked up". Even at school, if the teacher has a colouring page for them to bring home he will insist that he needs one for Tamaya! He got some gift bags from his teachers for Christmas and he shared them with Tamaya as well. I am really amazed at how much he respects and adores her.

Besides all that, in general life is going really good, I'm not feeling overwhelmed or stressed..lol. I am just enjoying being me, I kind of feel like the "old" me is coming back and I must admit it feels mighty nice!

DIVA...

Happy New Year!!! We have spent a very pleasant few weeks together as a family. Ty goes back to school on Monday and hubby is returning Thursday - life I as know it will get back to "normal" and I will be back then to update you all on the past few GREAT weeks we have spent together ;-)