Monday News...

Last week we received a letter from Ty's orphanage stating there has been confirmed cases of both sexual and physical abuse during his time there. They mentioned they have now notified all parents that had children in the Orphanage while the said nanny was there. (He has been home almost 3 years. Man, does it really take that long to let parents know their children were in an abusive environment..???, plus the letter clearly stated to keep this info on the down-low... so I am only sharing this with my blogger friends) For obvious reasons the nanny was fired right after one child came forward. They also mentioned that they had originally thought the abuse was only of the older girl, but now have some cases of boys coming out as well. With Ty having been so young while he was there he is unable to verbalise whether this abuse happened to him, but he may have been a witness. My poor baby. I have had a bad feeling for a while about the trauma my son has endured in the O, I also recently found out that while he was there, there was 1 nanny caring for 30 babies... he was one of them, I was totally under the impression the child to nanny ratio was 5:1. I guess ignorance is bliss???

As many of you know I have been having great difficulties with Ty and after again speaking to a few professionals I will proceed with getting him therapy for pre-verbal trauma. I have been invited to attend a 6 week seminar for parents which have children that have endured a traumatic event in their live, the focus will be teaching parents how to be the therapist and how to get to the root problem. Once the sessions are over, I will be attending a few visits with the specialist, then together we will work on intense trauma therapy with Ty. At least we are no longer at a stand still with his issues and can now proceed with therapy. I feel like we are finally getting somewhere.

My Tamaya has had her test back from bio-med in Haiti. She did have another fungal infection on her scalp that they are now treating with an antibiotic... thank goodness they didn't shave her head again. :-) Still no news on if she is out of court... hopefully this week? There is a rumour their stamp broke and are waiting for a new one... LOL.. only in Haiti man oh man. GOD GIVE ME THE PATIENCE TO GET THROUGH THIS WITHOUT LAUGHING TOO HARD!!!

I love my honey so much, I can't believe only a couple days left and he will be gone again. It seems like just yesterday he back came home. I guess soon enough he will be home for good. I have a hard time looking at him. Every time I do I get a lump in my throat. I have all those insecurities of what ifs and am so afraid that I will loose him. I know it's just my deepest fears, but none the less it doesn't make it any easier. If only he could just stay home. I wonder if I break his legs while he is sleeping they would let him stay home??? (OK ... that was just a thought, you all know I'm not that psycho..right?)

I'm trying to process all of this information. Possible abuse, getting Ty therapy, Steve leaving, having the daycare kids back on Thursday, the grant, my daughter, Christmas shopping that I haven't even thought of shopping for yet, going home for Christmas, :-) getting my house cleaned (Can you believe my beloved husband convinced me that we would finish it tomorrow, he is so much worst than I am)

Like Eeyore would say "everything is gonna be alright".